where do you find yourself- while I sit here alone, lonely, but at peace with God and happy to not be suffering from a loveless relationship- where do you find yourself?
do you find yourself suffering because you have sacrificed everything to someone, then watched them tear down every fiber of worth from your mind, body, and soul?
do you find yourself together with someone, giddy with excitement, but hiding the fact you know nothing about him?
do you find yourself attached to a mirage, an image you thought existed, but cannot exist in a mortal man?
do you find yourself escaping the present, hoping for a return to the past, while the future passes your car window every day and you do not reach out to take it?
where, o, where, o woman, do you find yourself tonight?
in the arms of a husband
the arms of a stranger
the arms of a pillow
or all alone?
i, the king of those rejected, know heart-pain. and i, even i who have been rejected by so many women, i should be celebate, love you, want the best for you, long for you to know peace. because even though i am so alone…i am so alone, but not alone. every night, every day, another walks beside me, another stands guard. and i know The Presence, for that Presence is unforgettable. no matter how much pain i have gone through, that presence has comforted me, that Presence has closed my eyes so i can sleep. that Presence has eclipsed the moon of indifference, and brought me joy even admist sorrow…and that has made all the difference in this journey of life.